@ 02:50am
front row seat

Just heard an unfamiliar screeching vocalization outside. Decided to investigate, and I found this tiny little white owl sitting on a limb not five feet from my face. Silver white feathers and big yellow eyes. Could have cupped him comfortably in my hands. He stared at me for a bit, then craned his head this way and that at the sounds of the night.

The leaves were rustling even though there was hardly a breeze, and large acorns kept crashing noisily onto the deck. Since the dog refused to go out earlier, I felt a bit trepidatious while observing his vigilance. I felt the presence of larger animals watching me from the dark at my back, but I still stood and watched him for five to ten minutes. Eventually he sidled around on his stubby legs to complete my view of his chibi form. Then a minute later he flew off to a less crowded location.

(2 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 00:32am
fuck the industry's creativity impotence

New Hunter x Hunter series coming this fall.

It will be a complete remake of the original with all new crew and cast.


(1 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 23:02pm
and thanks for all the fish

Hey bro, back in hs I had a premonition about today. You still around?

Nah, about thirty thousand feet now. Heading up. So long heathen!

(4 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 14:09pm

This picture makes me so much happy!


(weigh anchor)

@ 23:03pm
majority morality

"If we rely upon the ideas of the majority, the results will be disastrous. Wherever there is found among a people a small band of select spirits, or perhaps one man, working for the establishment of higher and nobler ideals than those commonly accepted by the group, we shall be compelled to hold that...the majority are right, and the reformers are wrong and are preaching what is immoral. We shall have to maintain, for example, that Jesus was preaching immoral doctrines..." - W.T.Stace

(weigh anchor)

@ 20:04pm
describe yourself in two sentences

Mixed-ethnic average "white" male with no distinct ethnic culture, modest reincarnate of Twain's middle right finger and starry left eye, landlocked sailor's soul, champion of the demonized, impersonator of the gods, student of human experience and the biology of beliefs, renowned writer in select realities. Travel size with hazel eyes.

(weigh anchor)

@ 02:08am
a Minority is a Majority is a Minority

"Many gay teens are trying suicide as a way of escaping. If you want to tell them that life will get better and that you respect them for who they are copy and paste this."

I was an outsider before I knew what I was an outsider for, so I can't peg it on any one thing. I can't say I suffered for being this or that before I'd even identified it myself. Yet I was the most suicidal when I didn't know what I was doing wrong. So.

If you are gay, bi, trans, queer, straight...
If you are peach, chocolate, ebony, ivory, yellow, red, black and blue...
If you are atheist, agnostic, muslim, christian, jewish, pagan, other, nothing...
If you are democratic, republican, independent, socialist, communist, etc, unaffiliated...
If you are too tall, too short, too large, too small, too jock, too nerd, too happy, too sad, too loud, too quiet, too eccentric, too boring, too unique, too utterly average...

For WHATEVER freaking reason you don't fit in -
For whatever has brought you grief where you sought only peace, equality, understanding:

I respect who you are. You're alright. You will get there.

You don't need to change for anyone who doesn't really know you. You need to find the people who /fit/ into the puzzle piece that IS You. And be the best representative of yourself you can be, so that more people fit into the scheme all the time. Suffering becomes strength. Diamonds are forged under pressure. I approve of you. Others will too.

(1 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 00:38am
the black shroud of death

Comedians couldn't invent a worse response to the oil geyser. I don't have any words adequate.

The Russians attacked oil spills with nuclear weapons.
We attacked ours with trash.

Welcome to the grown up world.
And the only water we have on Earth.

(1 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 11:06am
god of dreams

I think there's a mysterious force that tries to keep you in dreamworld by compelling you to believe that something is very important about staying.

(7 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 23:07pm

mood: awake
Endorfiends, woo!

(2 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 01:58am
8 times infinity

If I turn dreams into stories, did I adapt the dreams or did I predict my own stories? :)

(2 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 22:34pm
mum's log

mood: amused
From mum's text logs Re: my bday:
Yes it has been a very nice weekend. We took him out to the Irish pub in Lakeport last night & bought him a pint. Well two actually. :p It's his favorite place & they serve British food which he's been missing since he got home. I asked him how the hell he's 30 & he just laughed - he was busy playing Mario on his wii!

(5 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 13:42pm
you are cordially ordered

If you think you can tolerate a pop song for my sake, please join this forum.

Then comment here and await further instructions.

(12 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 14:39pm
wrapping up

On December 13th I watched the sun rise from a bench at the train station in Belgium.

The Return

The train was delayed and I missed my ride back to London. Wasted hours at the station in Brussels only to have too little time to wrap things up at home... which included dragging my laptop & backpack all over Chelsea, because I was determined not to leave without seeing Twain's English residence... something that had been on my agenda since the start.

Read more...Collapse )

Last Thoughts
I'm one of those people who travels around searching for that sense of "home" even while enjoying the journey. Whenever I first embark toward a place that seems a strong candidate, I wonder if I'll find it when I get there. I didn't find it in San Francisco. Is that because it was the wrong place, or because I didn't have the time or opportunities to get to know it? It's still a very personal place to me, but with significant downfalls. Traffic. Overcrowding. Crime. Disease. An inevitable major earthquake. But then there's perfect climate, free healthcare, culture, and some of the only good/oldish architecture on the West Coast.

I wondered about it as I headed to London, and had to suppress a welling sense of disappointment upon getting there. It wasn't love at first sight. The area I first laid eyes on was dingy and industrial, and my flat, though in a nicer area, was near a major thoroughfare. Without a car or familiarity with the area, I felt trapped and irritable.

But that changed. I think it changed after Scotland. It changed when I learned the ropes and realized my mobility. Not only my mobility, but where it could take me. Where, and how easily.

London isn't perfect. Like California, it's overcrowded, expensive, and the traffic is inescapable in most districts. University there isn't free anymore, everyone and their mother smokes, and winter days are an hour shorter than they are in California. Shorter still in Scotland. ...No place is perfect.

But in the final tally, London has more to offer. I miss the pubs. I miss the theater. I miss Camden. I miss the safety I felt walking around in the big city at all hours. I miss the option of taking the tube, even with its downfalls. I miss the free paper, even if it had more to say about Tiger Woods than the president of the EU. I miss the politics, and the feeling that I didn't need to pay into a protection racket to spare myself going bankrupt in the event of accident or illness.

But most of all I miss the ability to travel all over the UK and Europe. About twenty pounds would get you a relaxed train ride to just about anywhere on the continent, with room to stretch out, electric outlets to every seat, and wireless internet. And for around fifty to a hundred pounds you could travel by air or rail to a myriad of ancient countries, all culturally unique and utterly steeped in myth and history.

Here in the states is the real trap. You can travel the Americas, but the rest of the world is so far out of reach. And twice as far in California; the west of the west.

(10 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 00:01am
bring it, 2010

A Full Moon on New Years is a powerful Good Omen in Lucifer Land.

Rather than looking back at the failings of the old year, or the disappointments of the present... I wonder about what future new years will have robbed from us. I hope to see 2020 with my family alive and in decent health.

(1 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 22:41pm

wonders why things that shouldn't matter, do.

(4 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 18:51pm
quote of the day

"I want a pig in my teacup. I want it right now!" - Bart

(2 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 11:10am
silly pilots

I need to swing through Canada, Ohio and Florida on my way back, but for some reason I'm going to Boston.

(3 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 14:10pm


(1 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)

@ 03:14am
london family

It was weird, as ever, to not be with the family when they all get together, but I had a great Thanksgiving nonetheless. Alessandra said to tell them I was with my new family, which was very sweet even as a joke. Alessandra, Gryphon, Bells, Mariana, Noriko and I made a good, relaxed group. Everyone got along and there was plenty to talk about. Best of all, everyone was engaged in the conversation, including Noriko who is very soft spoken (I would have hated for her to feel left out after I encouraged her to come).

It was fantastic to get to hang out with all of them, and I'd like to be able to do it more in the future. It's unfortunate everyone is only meeting now when we are soon to go our separate ways, but that makes it all the more valuable to have these times. The food was good, too, and I really didn't feel lacking for Turkey Day goodness.

Happy times.

(4 went over the waterfall | weigh anchor)


[x] boku
[x] fiends
[x] photos
[x] memories
[x] antichrist
[x] archives
[x] iconage
[x] wishlist

[ bible ] Calvin & Hobbes

[ music ] Symphonic Rock, Celtic Rock, Choral, Yasunori Mitsuda-Time's Scar

[ webcomics ] Gunnerkrigg, Vattu, Goblins, Johnny Wander

[ book ] The Two Towers, Huck Finn, HGttG, Diaries of Adam & Eve, The Mysterious Stranger, HP 3-5

[ show ] Dr Horrible, The Daily Show, The Wire, ST:NG, 30 Days, MSCL

[ game ] Portal, Chrono Cross, Ico, FF Tactics, Mario Kart

[ manga & anime ] Children of the Sea, Eden, NANA, Hunter x Hunter, Hikaru no Go, Kino no Tabi, Utena, Lain, Evangelion, Cowboy Bebop

[ bane ] Censorship, commercialism, nationalists, corporations, religion of mass destruction, manufactured people/ideas

[ saving grace ] contrast, diversity, mystery, discovery, fellowship

[ fetish ] pirates, samurai, swords, ships, language, culture, gothic themes, redheads, freckles, abstract thought, expression, inner demons, strong bonds, cognitive dragons, noble assassins


johari | tell me who I am
home | relativelyhuman
blog 2.0 | widdershins
travel | world's end
amvs |
youtube | favorites
cels | sakayume
sketch | kyokiru@devart
comic |


'cause america can
and america can't say no
and america does
if america says it's so
and the anchorperson on tv goes la de da de da de-dadedade-da


said the hero in the story
it is mightier than swords
I could kill you, sure, but
I could only make you cry
with these words


"Now and then we had a hope that if we lived and were good, God would permit us to be pirates." - Mark Twain


Featuring Killua and Gon from Togashi Yoshihiro's Hunter x Hunter. Colored by me. Inspired by/modeled after bikun's HikaGo layout designed by Kirei. Brushes from V-Brush and pattern from Squidfingers.